Friday: Actually, had mass yoga in the morning... Haha... Feels good having exercise early in the morning... Hahaha.... We should do some running and stuffs like that... Hahahaha.... Den got back chem paper... I got 54 only lah..... Wat the heck.... I need an 'A'!!! Hahaha.... But at least i improve... Hahahaha.... Okay2.... And dats about it lah... Nothing interesting happen to me....
Saturday: Went for TKD training in the morning.... Haha!!!! Learn the basic some more.... and the basic is like.... so pro like that... Hahahaha..... Must balance a tin can with your raising leg and that kind of thing... Hahaha!!! Den i met my family and we played badminton!!!! Woohoo!!! Hahaha.... Played for two hours..... Half way im exhausted already.... Hahaha... Den after that straight away i met my sec sch friends and we went to esplanade to watch fireworks!!!! Woohoo!!!! Hahahaha!!! I reached there at 5pm and waited until 9pm.... that is like 4 hours??? Hahaha... Only kiasu ppl will do that... like me.. Hahaha but it is worthwhile okay.... the fireworks so nice!!!! Hahahaha!!!! I got this pic from my friend, Raphael.....
Nice right??? Hahaha... And i just wish someone was there with me.... Den that will be so nice... hahaha... adding on also i was dressed up so nice and neat for that night... LOL!!! Hahahaha!!! Sorry readers, i just feel that way... Hahahaha... GAY!!! Hahaha.... Wat the fish!?!?!?! Hahaha... Den after that, i went home and thats about it.... Hahaha....
Today: Wake up early in the morning coz my sis is going to compete in the Junior Silat Championship.... Hahaha.... Pack here and there... almost everywhere.... Hahaha!!!! And b4 we left, me and my bro played resident evil 4... Hahaha... Now im not scared already!!!! Hahaha!!!! But i was a bit scared when there's a lot of zombies coming to you and you have no idea what to do... and the worst part is that you dont have enough ammunition.... Hahaha!!!! OKay... enough of that... we headed to joo chiat cc for the competition.... and my sis got second!!! Yay!!! Hahaha... We got gold and silver medalist at home!!!! Hahaha!!!! 5 gold medals and 1 silver medal!!! Woohoo!!!! Hahahaha!!!! and guess wat??? i have been recording all the pesilats who perform just now from 10am till 5pm.... And i was soooo sleepy... Hahaha... record wrongly somemore... Hahaha.... And there was this guy, he was also recording like me and he was bored and he started to talk to me and this is wat he said...
Guy: So still schooling?
Me: Yup.
Guy:Which poly?
Me:No, im in JC
Guy: Ooo.. i see... Eh, why JC does not take part in the recent IVP silat?
Me: Arrm, coz JC dont have a silat cca
Guy: Ooo... Actually they should have silat as a cca in JC so that there will be a lot of competitiors in the competition.. Well, why not your club start the cca in your JC?
Me: Haha... See first ar...
Actually, we talked in malay.... just translate it lah.. Hahaha... It was fun talking to him ar... I was beside him for like 7 hours? Maybe less than that but ard there... hahahaha!!!! wateva... den i reach home and start blogging ar... And i also got something to blog...
Okay fine.... I know i talk rubbish and people cant even understand me... And since when the reason im that way is because of you.... I told them that the problem is not you.... I told them there is nothing wrong with you. I am the problem. I am upset that time because i got my problem. And the problem that time was my friends.... I keep thinking too much until it goes so far... So far that i think of the negative side of it... that is why im that way at that time. Why should i tell people that you are the problem? Why should i tell that you are the cause? Hello.... I dont do that to my friends.... And i will never do that.... I will do that to someone whom i really really dislike... And maybe im the kind of person who doesnt care about people's feelings... I only care about myself right? Im always like that right? At that point of time.... i didnt know how you feel... i didnt know because im already upset of myself.... And now, if you really cant help me anymore, den i will help myself.... if you dont want to help, is your wish... I cant stop you... i know i ask so much from you..... i know you dont know wat to do after helping me so much.... i talk too much crap and i dont say things clearly right? if you wanna give up, its your choice.... i have nothing to say.... And i must agree with you... Maybe i became too sensitive when i joined JJC.... Maybe i became too girlish when i come to JJC and guess wat? My own father told me that.... He told me i act like a girl.... He told me i totally change a lot.... From a happy-go-lucky boy to the moody boring syafiq you have seen for the past few weeks.... but is my problem right? so i have to solve it myself right? okay, fine... im so sory if im taking this too seriously... but this is wat i feel... im not trying to make you feel wrong or something.... And why do you always have to do it on your blog? Can we meet and talk and settle this? Can we take our free time to discuss about it? Can you tell me face to face? You know, its weird for readers to read about this kind of thing.... Seriously, we should meet.... thats the only way... if we keep on doing this, i tell you, it will never end....
We must really really talk about this... We must not ignore it..... Ignoring it will make things worst... We must talk... We must communicate.... and communication is what we lack of... and from my own opinion, i believe that i lack in communication skills.... thats is why this is all happening.... All this nonsense i created.... Seriously, we need to talk.... I beg you.... We need to talk...
[Believe my words, and i promise you that we can settle this]
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