its october already.... i still remember last year, i still dont have a blog and i will be in school, doing my revision with my friends and you-know-who at that point of time... hahaha.... we learn poa, maths and all.... last year, i die die dont wanna join JC coz i know my l1r5 cant make it one.... haha... and now im here, wearing the JJ uniform and all.... i just cant believe it.... it happens so fast...


sometimes i wonder, am i fated to be this way? i tink He gives me challenges now, He wants me to realise the true me now coz during the past few years, i have never felt this way..... this year is the peak of my life.... im been hated, im been scolded... from the day i stepped into JJ, all of this has happened to me.... its a challenge from Him... my wrongdoings and all.... i have to do something now.... to be a better person of course..... i cant turn back time.... like wat i said just now, everything happens so fast....


all i wanted now is to be a great brother, a great son and a great father.... i want to support my siblings in any way..... eventhough im still the lazy old me, i will promise to do that.... my parents sacrifice so much for us.... all i wanted is to be an accountant so that i can pay them back in return..... and i always wanted to be a great father.... i want my children to be the best that they can be and i want to share stories with them..... share my stories about my teenage and college years, my mistakes and all..... i dream for that day to come..... like wat i said, time flies very fast...


now i have to worry about my studies.... coz 'A' levels is only a passport to the university.... i need lots of stuffs now like money, computers, games and all.... hai, no one has a perfect life... and there are some stuffs which nothing can replace them.... only time can heal the problem....


come to think about my wrongdoings, i think that watever i did wrong, i shame my parents.... thats all i know....


oklah, still need to clean the mess...